|I finished writing my book... this year was the year my|
writing was going to take off.
First off, I finished my book for NaNoWriMo in November. And by finished, I don't mean I just hit the 50,000 word mark and completed the challenge, I actually completed my manuscript. So what was next? I was going to get it edited and published.
So I had big plans for 2013. It was the year my writing was going to take off. I was going to get my book published, I have the second one in the works and I was even going to take my blog a little further and purchase my domain name. This was the year for my writing to become more of a career and less of a hobby. Not that I haven't made a few dollars from it, but I really wanted it to take off.
The other thing I was expecting... I was expecting financial freedom. Not because my husband got a raise. Not because my writing was going to start bringing in more money. But because we had two bills that were about to be paid off. Any adult knows that this is an exciting feeling. Finally, a bill being paid off gives you the potential to free up a couple hundred dollars. And I had two that were about to free up some money. Suddenly, we were going to have breathing room in our budget! I was excited. Finally we were going to be doing good. Living month to month would be a thing of the past.
Naturally... that didn't happen. Usually when things start looking good, things start quickly rolling downhill. At least for me. After all, my luck fucking sucks! Murphy and I - well, we aren't on talking terms. And someone up there probably hates me!
So then today, I realized something. I realized the root of all my problems. I expect to much. When I expect things to go as planned, they almost never do. And when they don't happen the way I expect them to, then I am disappointed.
So from now on, I am not going to expect anything.
I did not expect that my car - which has never shown a sign of a problem - would suddenly out of no where blow up in the middle of a road trip! Why would I? Only now, I expect something like that to happen.
I am not expecting that when a company screws up our bill, that we shouldn't be the one to pay for it. After all, we are the customer and they have us by the balls. We need their services. So sure, even though I am down on luck, go ahead and shut off my power, even though the bill isn't even due for another five days and we paid them last month. After all, why wouldn't I expect the company to make it up to us for their mistake. Instead, they tell us to pay a month in advance to get everything straightened out!
|It's all about the money - can't say|
I blame them!
And to top it all off, I expected that I could come home and after all the issues we have had, I would be able to relax and put things behind me. But that isn't happening either. So on top of all the stresses we have endured, I have got a sick kid home from school.
But then again, I wasn't expecting that either!